No Words

Before Hunter's transplant, I went to counseling.  I had a lot of "what if" questions and apprehension about a huge risky procedure.  We had no guarantees transplant would be successful, and I wanted a professional to help me get ready and work through how to handle my anxiety.  I had some homework after my first session.  Basically, my counselor asked me to decide if my faith in God was dependent on how transplant went.  I had to answer for myself, "Is God still my God even if things don't go my way."  After a lot of soul searching and discussions with Hunter and our families, I was able to say for certain that our faith was "for real" and not just a trivial belief when life was easy.  That is how both Hunter and I were raised.  It's in our DNA.  Our faith is a way of life that we choose.

The first few 40 days of transplant did in fact go our way.  Praise God.  Since then, it's been tough.  You all know that.  And most of you all probably have heard by now about Chase and Macey's struggles.  Their twin pregnancy has been filled with unexpected complications and things doctors don't usually see very often.  It's been heartbreaking.  Macey has been carefully monitored in the hospital in Abilene for the last several weeks with contractions.  The fear was that a strong contraction could break her water.  The thing we have prayed so hard about happened this morning.  Her water broke.  She was careflighted to Harris in Ft. Worth.  Chase and Jana are with her, as are our close friends the Wessels, and Macey's family is on their way from Lubbock. 

Right now Sadie's heartbeat is strong and steady.  Our girl is a fighter.  Praise God.  As long as her heartbeat is steady, things will stay as is.  Right now Sadie is tolerating less fluid.  Praise God.  Every day she spends in the womb is advantageous to her.  Chase and Macey are hanging in there.  Please join us in begging God for more time for Sadie.  We would not bother asking for people to join us in prayer if we did not believe it made a difference.  We have experienced miracles before and are expecting another one in the life of Sadie. 

Hunter is hanging in there too.  His hemoglobin is up again today to 10.0.  Praise God.  He has been working hard with Physical Therapy.  His muscles are so weak.  His arms work really hard to fight gravity and lift.  Today in therapy they did lots of anti-gravity exercises isolating his arm muscles.  He has a hard time not locking his knees when he walks because the muscles are not strong enough to keep them stable.  It will just take some time to strengthen his body.  He is very frustrated but determined.     

Ernie took the boys to visit Aunt Macey and Sadie yesterday.  Chase spun them in circles on the stool until they couldn't walk.  We love them so much!

      

Pray for Sadie to develop and grow quickly.  Pray for Macey.  Pray for Hunter's hemoglobin, his nerves, and his muscles.  Pray for wisdom for all the doctors in two different cities taking care of them.  And please pray for those of those who are trying to support those we love.  We have no words, only souls crying out.